the bowl is already broken...

Geez..it was a funny and a happy day for me!

i got a scholarship. in a condition i need to finish all 5 subjects within 2 years.
ok. Hopefully, i'll pass with flying colours.

and i was thinking, i want to ask for transfer to my hometown after finished studying.

i was getting rusty living in Kuala Lumpur. Bored actually. Nothing much if you've living for the past 14 years.

matriculation - university - working

Wait and see.

A good strategy.

i was still thinking.

She's 43 this year. I was so happy for her.
But you know what.
i actually hate wedding. regardless whose.

wedding makes me sad.
wedding makes me cry.
wedding gives me heartache.
wedding only left a feeling of sand in my mouth.

Well, i better toughen for this one. It my only sister. And i would not excape it.

*banzai*

I've read a lot of original fanfiction. It means, it based on author's fiction not on manga/tv series.
These are my favourite. Why?.
These are written in long pages which makes adore it. I just love long stories.
And it full of angst too.

Oh yeah, for softhearted person, i would not recommended. Only tough girls.*_*

i would recommended these authors:-

Author: Kiix
http://original.adultfanfiction.net/authors.php?no=1296793469

Author: Lilith
http://original.adultfanfiction.net/authors.php?no=1296858693

Author:ElementChild
http://original.adultfanfiction.net/authors.php?no=1296809638

Author:MiriuOniaya
http://original.adultfanfiction.net/authors.php?no=1296850898

Author:Pesterme2
http://original.adultfanfiction.net/authors.php?no=1296869336

Author:Kabi
http://original.adultfanfiction.net/authors.php?no=1296820604

Author:VelvetMace
http://original.adultfanfiction.net/authors.php?no=1296772582

Author:Cokey The Cat
http://original.adultfanfiction.net/story.php?no=544204453

Author:TwistedHilarity
http://original.adultfanfiction.net/authors.php?no=1296799642

Author:Aathenaartisan
http://athenaartisan.livejournal.com/

Author:Maderr @ Amarreto
http://maderr.livejournal.com/

Author:Freece
http://freece.livejournal.com/

I really like this album.
Has anyone listen to it yet?

i downloaded it from a torrent. *_*
 
Kate Perry - I'm Still Breathing
I leave the gas on
Walk the allies in the dark
Sleep with candles burning
I leave the door unlocked
I'm weaving a rope and
Running all the red lights
Did I get your attention
Cause I'm sending all the signs and
The clock is ticking
and I'll be giving my 2 weeks

Pick your favorite shade of black
You'd best prepare a speech
Say something funny
Say something sweet
But don't say that you loved me

Chorus:
Cause I'm still breathing
Though we've been dead for awhile
This sickness has no cure
We're goin down for sure
Already lost a grip
Best abandon ship

Maybe I was too pale
Maybe I was too fat
Maybe you wanted better, better luck off in the sack
No formal education
and I swore way too much
But I swear you didn't f**king care
Cause we were in love

So as I write this letter and shed my last tear
No, it's all for the better
That we end this this year
Let's close this chapter
Say one last prayer
But don't say that you loved me

Chorus

I'm still breathing
I'm still breathing
 

I am tired.

The class has begun. The lecturer talks very FAST. I bet the bullet train get a second after that particular lecturer.

Fortunately, added to the fastest way of speech. The lecturer is quite nice and interesting. Which means, I DID not fall asleep while listening. ha ah ah ha.

have i told i got a scholarship?.

I GOT ONE!

ahahahhaa...pretty genius arent i?

eughhh!.

with added money in my pocket, i can spare a little for my housing loan. Yeah i got a apartment to pay, bills to settle, and etc.*_*

Life is very challenging.

I thought after finishing 6 years in primary school, 5 years in high school, 6 years in university, i would be free of SCHOOL!

But, it seems, fate much more 'naughtier' to me.*sobs*

I've to go to school again!. And this time is a professional diploma. *urgh!*
And it's terribly expensive too.
If I manage to escape it, I would. But my bosses ask me to goooooo!
*sobs*
*whines*
*cries*

Well, they do intended well, but my pocket is not.

Well, dearie, on 19th May my classes is starting. I'm dyinggggggggg.

*sobs*

I guess, I still got the look...*LOL*

I was boarding the commuter to my home around 9.45pm on Friday.
And you know what, a youngster is trying hard to tackle/try on me.
I was like....is he for real?.

So i spent the 15 minutes bewildered at the youngster antics just trying to get me to talk and laugh with him.
He was so cute....kinda my type too.
But darn, i have not even change phone no with him...considered that he has not yet asked for it.

And then i realised something....I feel like a child again at meeting boys during teens age.

And i wonder will i ever met that guy again?

His eyes is so gorgeous.
That's the first thing i thought when i see him.
At least, he is in the movie. Underworld Evolution.
His eyes is so cyan like.
*_*


I get shy when i stare at people. Well, i get shy even when i talk face to face with my superiors. My colleague said, i'm not good at picking the right answer'. Which means, i'm right in what i am doing but i'm not good in defending it.

i wonder how to rectify it.

owwwwwwwwwwwwwwww............
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!

One thing for sure, Bleach is is ever predictable.
Ichigo got his ass being kicked again.
i wonder who gonna save him this time?.

the Arancar perhaps?.
those Arancar should be appearing sooner or later.
well, them being indebted to Uruhara.

blergh!

Woahhhh....after 400 plus chapter.
Finally Hinata said...i love you to naruto!
kyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

well, possibly it's a short lived being Pain is the midst of killing her....LOL

good god, actually i'm getting tired reading it.*_*

O_O

Well...i must say.

Translating is a very HARD work!.

I salute you all the scanlations group.

In the past,i've translating Purikyuu from Malay to English. Which not to my liking, upon reading back the works, I think i've done it badly.
Every where is crooked!

Thank goodness i've my buddies in RM to proof reading my work...*loves you guys*

N - *gives you honey cakes for being patient with me*
kykou-yk - *gives you a BIG hard disk for your computer*
Spiritto - *gives you lots of hugs for torturing youself in proof readin.*_*

Finally it's end last year.

Sigh,...finally!

I've finished scanning the raw for a scanlation group.*which shall not be named*...pffttt!

Feels so satisfied after finishing it.*_*

Kyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

Another continuation for Ichigo mashimaro?. Hurray, i've watched it and oh my....it's totally so cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!.


*_*
O_O
T_T
>_<
<_>

Well, this looks very interesting.
The first thing i saw the outfit of the girl, i think about Emma.

Yes dearie, it is the adaptation of British's style of living during Victorian, i think.

Looks nice. Well, i've bought Gempak no.222, have to read it now.

*gleeful*

Finally, after reading the shoujo manga by Kaoru, it finally end at ch107.

Kinda ...how to say. Ok i think.
Well, if you put into my opinion, it's kinda to simple?. Too cut short?.

Nevertheless, Kaoru's drawing is getting better and better.

compared to 10 years ago i think. She is a well famous now.

*blergh*

I guess I'm a workholic?.
I guess, I am.
To the bone and my mind.

If work is the only thing keeps you sane for 30 years...it is the only thing that will not makes you sad unnecessarily.
Well, minus the lectures and angry clients which you need to face everyday at work.

It's Sunday...but my mind is really want to go to office.

My mom scolding me for returning late from work. he ehe he he...but Mom, work makes me happy.
It keeps me focus from the tedious things i need to ponder...
Such life and problems of life.

I bet, if my office is within walking distance. Every day i'll be in the office.

ho ho ho!

I used to have dreams...a lot of them.
I guess, it remains dreams.
When it comes to reality...u need to face it.
Nothing comes handy in this real world.

Men?
They are totally...how to say?...
 Not realible...yeah...that's the word.

Imagine, if a girl is already stable, you might encounter a single guy.
The guy either so no realiable or out of reach.

Well, i guess...all good guys is already taken.
Too many girls.

Eventually, work is my life partner...forever.

This picture's is not mine. Just borrow it from an anime. But, when i see this background.
It feels like me...walking...threading a lonely roads.

I've loving to take photo since childhood. I love to capture things, movements and the happiness, so, in the future, after we are all old and cripples, these memories will keep us going strong and tough.

Few photo's i've taken, well, being an amateur, this is only my hobby. And i want to share with my friends.

Birds at lunch!


Cats at leisure!


Clovers!


Flowers at blooms!


Vegetations at growth!


I feel at ease after taking these...well more to come.*_*

*sniffles*
*cries*
*sore throats*
*darn ulcers*

i'm very weak against ulcers and throat problems.
i guess when you are pressure up, u tend to force yourself to work more and eventually, your body too tired to keep up.

Another bad thing, i think i'm being too shabby in clothing. i hate being me!

So my resolution this year is, to get more fashionable clothes...go to hell with gloomy and dulls clothes.
why i ever think that pastel colours suits me...?.
i would never know....eh wait...i know why...probably too much of English movies....LOL

oh yeah, being single is the best. after 7 years with the same guy with nothing my heart ache and naivity, finally i broke with him!
Good girl, why i never think of it much faster...i do wonder?.
i guess, girls tend to be loyal?.
jeeexx.....!

i've just finished doing my appraisal with my boss. Finger crossed!
i just hope i can get a promotion this year!
oh pretty pls?.
*puppy eyes*

well, at least gives me a few hundreds increments, why you say?.
aahahhaha....then i can buy a car with it.


*cringe*

This hunk is Ryuhei Matsuda.
Dont you think he's almost like Akihito from Viewfinder?.
This picture taken from a movie, Renai Shashin @ Love Collage.

This guy is totally HOT.

I wish I have a bf like this.*_*

Today, I found out that what it would like to know the meaning of my name in Japanese language. Gosh, two alternative given and it's a horrible.

See here:-

1.Saruwatari (monkey on a crossing bridge)
2.Asuka (fragrance of the bright day)

Link: http://rumandmonkey.com/widgets/toys/namegen/969

Try yourself.fufufuufuff

I bet every penny I have for the 2nd one.*sob*